Somewhere around hump day, my week completely collapsed on me. And it wasn’t like I found myself in an unexpected conundrum, but that didn’t make me want, or prepare me anymore to face it.
Fast forward to Friday morning, opening my IG feed, something I had no interest in the days prior. But fate would have me to see a post from one of the Birchett sisters. (If you are ever so unfortunate to not be acquainted with them, google “the Birchett sisters”—they’re a beast of a family from the D. I was so grateful to have interviewed Anesha back in 2019).
The post was weight loss progress pictures of Angela Birchett. She looked amazing, but it was the caption for me.
Whewwww, the way I was nuuurvous to post this?!? Not for any other reason than I just didn’t want to; I wanted to just have it for myself for a reminder (and to post in my weight loss group for #facetofacefridays). But when I tell you the way it keeps me in the fight when ya’ll send me encouraging messages and tell me something you saw got you moving?!? I immediately have a ‘get over yourself Ang’ moment! Whew! This is simply to say keep going! You may be fluffy and feeling yoself, and weight loss is not your goal…but we all got something…something that tries to zap our joy. For me, it was years of smiling, singing, laughing and not even seeing the prison I was in behind my eyes. I wasn’t happy cause I wasn’t facing my ‘something.’ These photos are a year apart. What a difference a year makes. Also, #leoseason is approaching. HAPPY FRIYAY!.
“But we all got something, something that tries to zap our joy. …I wasn’t happy cause I wasn’t facing my ‘something.’” Those were the lines that got me.
Dear Angela, thank you so much for getting over yourself and posting this. Weight loss is not my goal, well, maybe a few pounds, but you are so right; we all got something that is trying to stop us from being everything. And sometimes the work of facing that thing seems disheartening, and so we don’t. We just keep smiling and laughing though we aren’t really happy.
That makes me think of something Ash used to do a while ago when Brian would try to scare him. He would hesitate for a minute as if he was trying to make up his mind to be scared or not, and then he would run full force right towards the place that was trying to scare him. It was crazy that you could literally see him deciding to take everything he had to face his fears.
So now I am sitting here thinking about my something. God, please give me the heart to run full force right towards the place trying to scare me and zap my joy. Please help me to face that something.
P.S. Yes Ang, also cheers to Leo season approaching!
